Dilemmas (April 2012)

Why do I always end up with the partner that has so much damn potential but no drive or emotion for themselves? They wanna push and support me but when it comes to them and what they are good at, I have to sit back and tolerate the fuckery that is their attitude. “It comes with the territory,” but unfortunately my territory is protected by the most high, almost immune to your instant vexing mood. The more you add to my stress the less of me you can keep to your self. So until you understand that I have an opinion too, I have no comment about anything you want to do. Do what you think is the thing to do and I shall continue to follow my heart. I thought I was in it to win it, No I know i’m in it to win it, but at the rate we are going, you are gonna do more damage than good to our relationship because everything is your way or no way at all. In life we must make compromises in order to survive. I know because I am the princess of compromises. Life is full of genuine dilemmas and my present day life proves this statement true. I don’t wanna do any of the things that i’m doing but I feel in a way obligated to do them because there is no other way. “life is too damn short,” I continue to tell myself, yet you always seem to find a way under my skin and into the impatient portion of my brain, leaving me back at square one. Upset and confused about NOTHING! So the question still remains, why do I end up with the same partner !?